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My baby girl has the most beautiful smile.  I don't remember Boo smiling or looking at me as intently as Peanut does.  We sit for what seems like hours just looking at each other.  She smiles, which in turn makes me smile, which makes her smile even bigger.  It goes on like this for quite a bit longer that you would expect from a six week old. 

 

It seems that, at least for now, her smile is mostly for me.  We will be sitting together smiling at each other and Dad will walk into the room or I will reach for my camera and she will clam up and put on a frown.  With Boo it seemed like it took forever for him to smile at us; then one day he did and we have been seeing his one little dimple non-stop ever since.

She is also one of the most alert babies I have ever met.  As I watch her I can tell she is taking everything in, figuring things out.  She knows who I am and I can tell that even at six weeks she loves me.  We look into each others eyes and know we belong to one another, that we have something special.  When you have two children it becomes clear very quickly how very much the same while being completely different they are but how the love you feel for each of them is equal and unconditional but also slightly different in it's own way. 



In the hospital after Peanut was born I heard my Dad telling Boo that he wasn't being replaced, that we all still loved him.  He told him that while Peanut was growing inside me so was my heart so it could hold enough love for both of them.  My dad must be one of the smartest men on the planet.  He was so right, your heart really can grow bigger and hold more love than you thought was humanly possible. 



Finally caught a smile.